Hamilton Hill

Unremarkable behind the house. In summer, beyond the beech hedge, one field of barley and another of sheep. The lambs run speed trials back and forth beneath the horizontal dyke half way up – tiny specks of white, careering, bouncing, like cartoon characters or jumping beans.

I clamber over the wire fence. The first foot bends the rusty wire, pulling it through the staples in a gentle, creaking sag. Swing the second leg over, tight thighs and clenched posture making sure the barbed wire doesn’t snag my crotch. Over safely, and landing on the un-ploughed field margin. If I pick my way along this edge, I can reach the broader pathway steeply up under the ascending rank of beech trees.

Here’s the steep sledging field where Lena broke her leg, tobogganing over ice-crusted snow, straight into the lower fence. Was it fear that numbed or froze their minds, that prevented them from bailing, or dragging feet to slow the descent?

I gently pull a grass stem, easing the upper part out of the grip of the first joint. The tender fleshy end tastes vaguely asparagus-like, and then the remainder settles into a satisfyingly tough chew and cowboy-casual look.

I’m breaking sweat now, as the gradient increases. Over another fence, and clambering along the low-key rocks and muddy margins of the burn. Well, it’s barely that – more a field drain, really.

Window

There’s a long crack in one of the panes, running diagonally across the lower-right corner. Condensation has formed in the one-inch gap between the two. The strange loop hooks of galvanised steel tug upwards in response to inserted forefinger, and are swivelled to one side; then the textured metal knob on the sliding restraint mechanism can be loosened, and the window opened by nine inches, max. I guess that’s a safety feature for above ground floor.

The wind hazes its way, rippling across ripe barley in the gently sloping field above. Dark beech trees delineate the curve of the hill, rising up the field boundary. It’s a hissing, itinerant wind, gently playing the barley. From further up, the baaing of sheep on the heather-purpled top where the TV mast hides just out of useful sight.

Downstairs at breakfast, raspberry juice on yoghurt and muesli – the glut of berries mass-juiced and perhaps slightly fermented – intense and real.